Added May 12, 2011
I’ve always known I was different ever since I was a little girl. I didn’t know how to express my feelings and I often found myself angry and upset. I have always been a tomboy but in junior high I actually started to have feelings for my friends and I knew I was gay, I covered it up with boyfriends. I made a lot of good friends who brought me to church and when I was 18 I accepted Christ and I was in and still am in love with Jesus. I thought by accepting Him it would cover up my sin and eventually I wouldn’t feel the way I did. I know now that this isn’t a sin in my eyes, it’s my life and it’s who I am. I attend a Christian College where I found the love of my life! I can’t come out there because it is frowned upon and I would get kicked out. I’m living a double life and I’m tired of it, I wish I could runaway and be myself, all I can do now is wait until I graduate and I can tell everyone and be myself.