Added March 26, 2011
At the age of almost 54 I am ready to be a gay woman. Years of hiding or even acknowledging who I was. Tried coming out 13 yrs ago but went right back in. I got hurt and figured it was easier to disappear. No relationships just hiding.
I read Chely’s book and for the first time and I felt that this IS who I am. So I told someone. I tried reconnecting with a past partner. It was nice but has since ended. So, along with coming out, I am grieving the loss of someone I cared deeply about.
I’ve come out at work, to friends and even some family. And what do I hear? They knew? They always knew! So why does that bother me so? For my whole life I have been hiding and did not have to. And here is honesty for you. I am scared! Not so much about people knowing anymore. I am just scared I have to step out and live. I’m going back to therapy and doing the best I can. I’m not giving up. I think Chely’s book helped me, but I am still scared.
I am so glad young people to have the support that is so essential. I wish I did back when I was a kid. Past is past. I know that. Fear stopped me once and I won’t let it stop me now. I want someone “Like Me” to love me.