I don't know if anyone here can help me since I belong to a religion that I don't think that a lot of you are apart of, but I need all the help I can...

So I'm 18 years old, and I live in St. Louis, Missouri. I've known all my life that I have an attraction to women but I have come to label myself as a lesbian only about six months ago. I love my religion of Islam (those who belong in the religion of Islam are called Muslims) but there are strong feelings against homosexuality. As I was growing up, it was basically known to everyone that homosexuality is unacceptable and considered a sin. It was sort of a topic that was "nonexistent" so people never talked about it, never. Back in places such as Saudi Arabia, Iran, and Pakistan, people are put in prisons or put to death because they are homosexual (just to give you an idea of how forbidden it is).  I've read that in Islam, it is admitted that there are people who are born gay or lesbian, but the sin is whether they act upon it. So as of right now, since I haven't been having any sexual relations with a female, I'm not sinning.

I've only told one of my friends who considers herself as an atheist but she was born into a Muslim family and she fully loves me for who I am and it actually made us closer, but she doesn't really have the mentality of a Muslim so I don't really know how any of my parents or Muslim friends would react. The reason I told her was because I know she's a huge activate for gays. I haven't told my parents, my older brother, my twin sister, nor any of my more religious friends. Even though my parents aren't the most Islamic parents in the world, I still do fear their reaction, especially my mother's. She's always has expected me to marry a man and the typical Muslim girl lifestyle. I know that she is going to have a strong reaction and  I have decided not to tell them until I enter college and sort of "find myself" sort of deal.

The thing is I don't see a future for me. Because my religion forbids such a large apart of myself, I just don't see how I can be happy with who I am or who I will end up being with. The thing is when I do find someone that I'd like to be with, I sort of can't because of my religion. I really do love my religion a lot, but it's really a bummer that I can't be with the person that I'd like to be and can't live the life I would like to. As

Please, if you have anything to comment about or anything to say that will help me, please do. I can use all the help and support I can get. Thanks!